Visiting the doctor, I am diagnosed with severe depression, but what of the potentials for my enlightenment?Can you diagnose this? I fail to ask the doctor before my prescription is filled out. Sitting zazen in a sturdy office chair, hands clasped in meditation, eyes narrowed down. I speak of my mindfulness and he speaks of suicide. Will this pill alleviate the suffering of all sentient beings with my own sacrifice of taking? I wonder what he’d say if I asked such a thing. He lets me know I may get drowsy. The side effects include acting on those thoughts. Delighted, after my first dosage I offer the phrase 10 times of Namu Amida Butsu,and knowing now that my place in the pureland is secured, I can usher it forth for the multitude and the many. Or have I begun already to let it all throughout me perish? No subtleties in anything, everything a placebo, everything mind-altering.